Get me out of my mind...

...and get you out of those clothes.


Today Colin and I took his dogs for a walk at Haley Farm and then we madeout until I had to go back to school. I still don't think he's ready to move on from Beth, and I'm willing to trust my gut, for once.

Some crazy lady at the Charter Oak in Groton told Colin that his "lady was beautiful" (meaning me) and that I "could be a model and support (him) so he'd never have to work again". he didn't know what to say to that so he lit a cigarette, but afterwards we had a good laugh because even though I'm still not officially his lady, i do pretty much pay for everything for him.

when I first read that he got married I could feel my face start to burn- but then it began to cool off and I realized maybe things were/are better off this way.

stuff happens the way it's meant to- i really believe that.

AIM IM with GumboGump.
9:08 PM

GumboGump: ...teeth, the prettiest of the bones, glistening white.
a doe eyed stare forever innocent.
lips curled with know intent.
a whisp of tounge proves ernest...

excerpt from
"Merritt Parkway Handjob"
by: Chris Morano
.....

SK007R: that was supurb
SK007R: is it a song?

GumboGump: no i made it up haha its about a handjob in a car

SK007R: hahaha it would be
SK007R: so its aboiut steph?

GumboGump: aren'tthey all

SK007R: haha yes.
SK007R: so listen to this
SK007R: Nico wants to see me

GumboGump: sounds liek a disaster go for it

SK007R: thats exactly what i was thinking

SK007R: wanna hear what he said?
SK007R: " I didn't have anything more important to worry about than you Sarah Kate. You were the most important thing to me. And that's as sappy as I get because I never know what I can and what I can't say. Or at least how you'd react to it, so I guess it's better left unsaid.
Impure thoughts? Wanna share some with me? Hehe... And you can definatly bet that I've had some bad thoughts. I could bring on the apolcolypse anytime I want. Satan and I are tight. All I have to do is say the word. I'll remember that about the snow though. I'd only be a lucky boy if I knew that I was involved in them. But that's unlikely.
Speaking of which, I think that you and I should go out some time. Doesn't matter where, but I could tell you my stories from Richmond and maybe other ones. If you're lucky.
Yours more,
Nico

GumboGump: yeah well chances are hes prolly lonley and you'll have the upper hand
i'd make him grovel
soemthing feirce


SK007R: this is why youre my favorite: you give the best advice

GumboGump: i dunno do you care about him

SK007R: I did, more than anyone else I have before or since, but i havent seen him in three years and i just dont know
thats what im worried about

GumboGump: he'll prolyl fuck you up
GumboGump: hmm well i dunno all i know is personally when i am lonley and horny i do shit like that

SK007R: i know, i just cant tell if hes sincere or not

GumboGump: doubt it

SK007R: its like, how can he be? he hasnt seen me in THREE years

GumboGump: is he with someone no

SK007R: I dont know. neither of us has discussed that.
SK007R: but if he was than why would he be saying the things he's been saying?
SK007R:like that he'd be lucky if i thought dirty things involving him
SK007R: but then he says he cared about me, which is past tense
SK007R: so he doesnt anymore?

GumboGump: i dunno but I'll tell you this
GumboGump: dude its an act of a desperate man
GumboGump: i say milk it, it might make you happy in hte short term

SK007R:wouldnt that be mean though?

GumboGump: no hes the one being mean
GumboGump: hopping back into your life for his selfish purposes