today sucked.
i had to be up at 6-
in work at 7-
out of work an hour late at 130-
then mom got pissed and i had to go food shopping-
put off seeing jeff and he got pissed-
went by the seaport and had to PULL a letter of reconmadation out of sharon-
and then i got home and ben was all mad b/c i had planned on going out without seeing him for his b-day
so i put off jeff again and stayed home


and now jeff doesnt want to see me at all and im stuck home for the night and i just want to CRY because this isnt what i wanted at all.

i dont know what i wanted.

just not to be here or obligated to anything anymore.

i just feel so sick all the time.

or nothing at all.